Sunday, April 16, 2017

Self-Love ♡ Sundays | Inside My DNA

Lately, all I've wanted to do is allow myself to fall head first into everything, because I'm so tired of sitting on the sidelines watching life pass me by. Tired of being patient. Tired of self-sabotaging and talking myself out of potentially awesome opportunities, whether it be because of anxiety, fear of failure, or indecisiveness. It makes me think of the 2 songs I've adapted as my anthems over the past several years, both with a very similar message: Tori Kelly's Worth the Wait and Those Who Wait by Daley, but then I heard that new Kendrick Lamar song, DNA, and my world shifted instantaneously... "I got, I got loyalty, got royalty / inside my DNA...I got hustle though, ambition flow / inside my DNA..." However, this is not an album review yet-or a track review for that matter, but it's coming on #TheSkyBoxSuite eventually, I promise). 

Opportunities come to those who are willing to work in the meantime, to ensure that waiting doesn't morph into complacency, because a lot of the time it's less about talent and more about work ethic. A couple of years ago, I wrote an blog post was basically a lecture to self about the inadequacy of being "part-time ambitious", so to speak, and sorting through emotional reactions/awareness to how complacent I was becoming, yet here I am-almost 3 years later-still feeling like I'm not doing enough or at least not nearly as much as I should be doing. It feels like my dreams are waiting for me to move closer towards them. Now that I think about it, there are probably several post hidden in the archives relative to dream chasing and moving beyond limited thinking. BOSCO worded it best:

"Your only job is to jump & the universe takes care of the rest. Meet your dreams halfway." 

With that in mind, all I've wanted to do-as of late-is jump head first into things that make me feel all the more closer to knocking out goals, achieving personal happiness, and clinging tightly to the rush of it all. Luckily, there are people in my life who empower me to do so, but all the encouragement in the world can't force me to want anything more than I want it for myself; no one can do the work for me.

Impulsion seems to be a little taboo, but if the small steps aren't leading anywhere, what else am I expected to do? As an adult, I'm expected to be more strategic, more cautious, more calculated, more deliberate, etc. but perhaps sometimes, it's really about being bold enough to say yes to all the wonderful things and resources available to propel me forward. Because I know I have it in me, it's up to me to focus on what needs to be done and actually do it. 

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